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Here’s what my relationship with Lin is like at the moment: She tells me that she likes me and wants to be with me, but still insists that she’s in Tokyo. In reality, she is in Berlin. I pretend I don’t know about this, and try to encourage her to make up her mind and stop the pretense. I feel very annoyed and depressed by all of this. It isn’t so much the suspense of not knowing what’s happened inside the box; it’s just that at my age I feel tired of this type of game. I am almost at the point where a dead cat wouldn’t bother me so much – sure, it would be sad, but at least it’s a kind of closure.

Am I taking the analogy too far?

But why do girls have to make everything so difficult? Why couldn’t she just say, “hey, I will study German in Germany, when it’s all done I’ll visit you because I really like you”? Or just do her German class and stop pretending to like me. And it’s not like I had a weak moment and professed my undying love for her, and she’s just trying not to hurt me – she started it.

I am much simpler. If I like a girl, I’ll either tell her or shut the hell up. If a girl tells me to get lost, I get lost and never bother her again. If a woman likes me as well and we start a relationship – no matter how tentative – I do my best to make it work. And I never, ever tell lies to a girlfriend. Nothing on the scale of pretending to be on the other side of the world for months when I am basically next door.

I’d just tell Lin to go to hell – except that, unfortunately, I like her. So I let her walk all over me. What a pathetic geek I am.